I was super shy back then too (didn't help the no friends thing) and because of that and the things that were happening at home I did horrible at school and they put me in a class for Special kids because they thought I was mentally handicapped- I wasn't obviously.
Also as a child my non-step-father wouldn't even let me have friends because I was a girl, and it wasn't until Grade 5 when I finally got 2 friends who I stuck by.
Sera
and Cole.
They're still 2 of my closest friends and probably always will be.
What I'm trying to say by opening this small door into my past is that I guess I love school now because I get to be with people whom I love and love me. We often take for granted what we have at school: a place to escape from the house problems and a time to be with friends and learn things. A place where we can be cherished and cared for if we find the right people, and a place to reach out a hand to those people who are having issues.
Even though I've changed into a social person this past year I still have my issues and even vices I still hang onto, I think everyone has a vice they clutch. Although I love hanging out with people and such on breaks I don't seem to do much of it, I just sit around and play games, watch anime, and complain that I'm bored. I get used to the lifestyle so I don't do my homework and end up regretting it later.
I think in 2011 I'm going to change to be the social person I want to be so badly, and try harder, get a job, get the things I want, and hold the ones I love closer. I want to make more happy memories with friends and let go of more of these vices I still carry with me, I want to become a better person more so, and learn to love again, and I think with my new and old friends I can do that.
What's your main goal for 2011- if you have one?
Sorry for the super deep post btw I was listening to this really moving song and it motivated me ;__;
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