Perceptual dissonance.

Just a few of the things I'm into at the moment. Punk, tree hugging, smoking, (pictures, I don't smoke ;3) love, girls. beauty, and freedom. 

Lately I've been listening to a lot more punk rock and rock and it's been inspiring me to cheer the hell up and have a good time. You only live once, and remember it. 

Darling decapitation.

Lately I've been embracing my darker side, my more insane side if you will. I think there is beauty in the darkness that lurks in our hearts. ♥
Am I the only one that finds suicide kind of romantic at times? Yes? Alright. ;3
Punk love is so cute.

Throw me in the water.

I love the city, and always have. I don't really think I'd be able to live in a city much bigger than Victoria, but I think it's beautiful. Especially when it rains. I'm not too fond of being in the rain but I really love looking out at it.

Born this way. - Tag.

I watched the Born This Way Tag done by Blake Bliss quite awhile ago, but I recently re-watched it and decided I'd give it a shot. I was only planning on it being like... 6 - 8 mins but it's like 11 or 12... I talk a lot when it comes to people hate and love. :)


I realize it's bright but... I didn't like the original coloring so it had to be changed.
I was thirsty so at some point I aquire a lisp O__o
I could have gone on and on and oooon I actually had one more prepared but I decided not to do it because it tied into ugly.
If you want to do it go ahead. :) I'd love to see your responses.
I love you all, good day. <3

Look on the bright side.

The future scares me. I'm going to flat out say it, it terrifies me. Although, I'm trying to get over that.

"There is no past, present, or future. Life is only a series on Nows." - Blake Bliss.

I watched a video and heard him say that, and I thought and thought and thought about it. Guess what I discovered, he's right. Why bother thinking about what's happening at other time's when there's NOW to think about. I'm so busy fretting over Graduation that I'm losing track of who I am right now and who my relevent self is. Life is this finite thing that I was trying to break past, but I guess I'm okay with it now. Well- not exactly okay with it but I'm willing to accept the boundaries that I have.

Blake Bliss actually has inspired me a lot as of late and he truly is a beautiful man. He isn't that popular of a youtuber yet, but I think he could be. He helps people and encourages people. He also makes really beautiful music too. He's helped me stir myself back on the right path.

Instead of sitting here in a state of depression wasting my life away I think I'll go outside and admire the little things, the way the sun dances across the grass. The way the ocean twinkles on a sunny day and looks animated on a cloudy day. 

So instead of thinking of how life is the fragile finite thing, why not embrace the gift we were given to speak?

Think of who you are right now, this moment, as you're reading this, because no one will remember who you were two weeks ago and this post will even become completely relevant and forgotten. It matters now though. Don't concentrate on who you were back then, or who you want to be in 10 years, think of who you want to be right now and live in now. 

Actually I was going to use this post to say when I move out in a year I'll be making a lot of vlogs with Yuki... but it turned into a spew of random thoughts. ^ o ^ 

It was a beautiful day today. :3

New favorite word = Finite. :3 

Oh yeah, look up Blake Bliss on youtube. You wont regret it I promise. <3

~Love you.

Let the love begin.

I was looking through old photos on my old myspace account- back when myspace was popular you know, and I remembered my special place. It was a little pond where ducks would come to find their lover overshadowed by trees and beside that was a hill, and this was my most favorite and most precious place. I had so many memories there tracing back to my childhood. Some memories weren't very happy at all, but others were so much fun.

The hill would have been a little to the right of this place.

I had a lot of plans for that hill, like where I'd have my first romance.
 I always went there to write stories and read books I got a lot of inspiration from that place either from my own memories or just from the beauty I found there. Now that it's actually gone (yes my town managed to destroy my hill and my pond -__-) I'm having a tougher time trying to find a place where I can relax and write. I don't write my book on the computer, actually there isn't a single bit of it on my laptop it's all in various notebooks in my room. I tried going to the elementary school for inspiration but really that place barely has any beauty and I really have no good memories there almost, but there isn't many places within walking distance that aren't cold cause of the ocean.
Yuki and I probably will mourn over the loss of that place for a really long time, for us together it has a lot of power over us, I can't tell you the reason though only my most close personal friends know of the reason. ;)

Oh also I've decided that I'm going to be posting little bits of my book weekly or something to attempt to keep me motivated to write it. I'll be starting with the first chapter of course- of the second book. I've decided to keep the first book in my storage just to look back and see how it progressed over the years but it will never be published if I look for my series to be published.

This is a REALLY old photo of me from 2009 back when I was sort of in a band. I was writing a song for it- although it never was used. xD

It's a perfect day.

Most people would describe that as falling in love or something along the lines of that, but for me a "perfect day" is just finding joy in the little things and feeling really happy. School ended today, bummer but oh well. I can catch up on my sleep.
Each and every day I'm constantly reminded of how lucky I am to have such amazing truly beautiful best friends. I love them with all my heart- even though I spent like no time with any of my best friends actually. o-o I still love them. So, all in all today was a relatively "perfect day."

This song is so amazing, I'm in like love with it right now. x3 BTW the PV isn't an anime (Sadly, I'd totally watch it if it were...) it's just a PV made for the song lol.


I love me some Supercell. x3

The clock tolls on.

I keep neglecting my blog which I haven't been wanting to do, I've just been distracted with games and such. Again, this is causing my working ethic to suffer, my applications for work seem to all me turned down and such too and yeah the games and causing my homework to be... less than completed.
In any case these last few weeks I've been in a state of recovery, I seem to have been over working my body with tons of stress and such. 2 weeks ago I was out with the flu, and then this weekend I strained my back and couldn't really move much (Thus how I downloaded a new game...) Now that I know how it feels be old, I plan to be dead before my back is like this every day. o-o;
On the bright side the weathers becoming nicer and the cherry blossoms have blossomed beautifully this year. It's funny how I live by a bunch of them yet I never really noticed their beauty until this year. I was walking home on Thursday from the bus stop and noticed how bright the world seemed. It really was poetic in many ways. It was one of those moments where you wish you owned a camera but you don't. xD It really got me thinking that I should try and cheer up as I've been a real downer. o-o
I had been re-watching a couple animes which I was out, too like K-ON and when I finished that I re-watched Bakemonogatari (Ghostory) I forgot how funny Senjougahara was! XD "Do you hate kids?" "Yes, I can say I despise them even" "Why? .__." "One day I was at the supermarket and I bumped into a little girl, 'I'm sorry, are you okay?' I said, then I realized she made me be sentimental and nice and there after I looked at children with hatred."

"Arargi-kun, you're planning our next date." "Alright." "You better not take me to any strange places or I'll rip your skin off." "Roger that :)" She's funny in a mean way cause she's overly honest. xD
Someone finally bought my red skinny jeans too! Also Lauren and I's Halloween costume is coming along well, we're getting a REALLY good discount on high quality wigs and might get the costume part for free. :) Strawberry Panic cosplayers ftw!
Well, I hope to try and blog more when life brings me an interesting bit of fruit! :D

Beautiful souls.

I said in a previous post that I try really hard to find something beautiful in everyone, even if they're the meanest person ever who's stabbed me in the back or something, I would try to find something beautiful in then. Which often brings me to wonder why everyone thinks they're less than perfect.
Perfection is just a word we create with no real definition, I searched the deepest corners of my mind trying to figure out what 'perfection' is, and I can't find it. It just doesn't exist. We humans, especially girls, beat ourselves up over the silliest things! I used to absolutely loath myself because I simply wasn't "as pretty as her" or "as smart as her" and things like that, but hey, I'm sure there's someone who thought those things about me too.
We all have talents and skills that make us unique to us, and flaws just show us that we're still human which means we all do things wrong.
If you want, you can pick at everything wrong with you and make yourself feel bad, or you can take the time out of your day to pick out 1 thing you were proud of today, that you like about yourself that day. If you look on the bright side of things more happy things will happen to you and you'll enjoy life a bit more. (:
I made this because I know soooo many people that just complain about the way they look or their lives and don't even try to be happy, it's such a shame! We're all unique to ourselves and we're all beautiful, you are, I am, the guy next door is, that little girl in playground is, and that elderly old man reading the newspaper is.
So keep smiling. (:

What's one thing you like about yourself?
I'd have to say I really like my eyes, they're just such a unique color. ♥