It's been a hard week again, but don't worry as I have no intention of backing down quite yet.
Lately I've really been into the punk fashion again, it always interests me and inspires me to work on my own fashion.
I also think it's fairly obvious by this point that I'm more into girls again. Don't get me wrong, I still love me some hot body modded guy, but for some reason girls have been drawing me in more so.
It's also become slightly evident that I desire to live a more risky life style and want to take up smoking. That wont be possible for quite some time though so I'm trying to quell me desires for now.
Another thing is, that I screwed everything up with pupal again. Well, maybe, I'm unsure. I made it clear that I cannot continue to live a life where I never think about my own life, where I'm always chasing after her and her boyfriend to be mature. I've given that all up now to be my own woman again, and with that she's now ignoring me. Yet, at the same time, she wont let go of me.
I think it's wrong that I miss her? I mean, she was the only one after 3 years that would fight for me tooth and nail even if she never really showed it. I loved her, I fell in love with her. It wasn't a good move because falling in love with her meant being heart broken when she got her boyfriend. I always said she wasn't my type, but was that true? I'm not sure. I genuinely loved her as I loved Kierra. I made the same mistakes and tried to stop myself but in the process I only hurt her. That and she was starting to annoy me because of her immaturity.
Maybe this is for the better, I sure hope so.
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